Wednesday, October 9, 2013

transition brain {day nine}

You know what might beat the fogginess of pregnancy brain? Transition brain.
I'm currently experiencing both, and it's a bad combination. I can't remember my address. I keep forgetting how old I am. Heck if I remember what state I'm in some days.
There's so much shuffling during seasons of change, that it can leave you a little mentally checked out.

Add foggy brain to the unknowns and exhaustion of transition, and you might even find yourself feeling a little numb. At least I have on a few days. So many emotions, quite a few decisions to make, nothing feels totally settled - some moments I just want to sign myself out of being a person and watch TV all day with a carton of ice cream.

That's ok to do for a day or two. But eventually, I've had to choose to actually live, even within the fog. I've had to choose to engage.

On some days, engaging is a hard, dig-deep kind of choice; on others it's come more naturally. Either way, on the days I've prayed for strength and opened my eyes to what's going on around me I've felt like me again.

I've had to choose to engage with people. I've had to choose to engage with God. I've had to consciously say "no" to the things that help me escape (TV, phone, my couch and a blanket), and say yes to life around me.

If you're struggling to see past the fog, start small. Ask God for strength. Truly listen to a friend when they are talking. Open your Bible. I was finding it hard to truly be present with Nicholas, so we bought a big roll of paper and some new crayons, and now our "thing" is coloring together. The phone is put away. We talk about what we're drawing. He bosses me around. And it is absolutely delightful.

Engaging won't cure the hardships of change, but it will make you feel like you. 
It will open your eyes to the needs of others, because it's so easy to think inwardly in the fog.
It will give you ears to hear how loved you are by the Lord. And I think it will take you one step closer to truly thriving.

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This post is day nine of my 31 Days to Normal experiment. I'm writing for 31 days, as I seek to thrive in a season of major transition. Click the circle below to see the rest of the posts in this series!


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