You land somewhere new (whether geographically or emotionally) and try to keep going on with life as usual, but feel like you are walking in slow motion. You're tired just because. You can't quite catch up and sometimes you don't know what day it is.
When we got home from Montana this week, I felt a little jet-lag-ish. (Not literally because we drove and it's only an hour time difference. Figurative jet lag.)
In a way it felt like we were moving all over again, and I felt so sluggish and unmotivated. My heart felt a fair amount of dread - I did not want to start at the beginning again. I'd already worked through the initial slap in the face that is the first few weeks of change.
I think it was Jesus because I'm too tired right now to come up with good ideas: I somehow just knew that I had to jump back into life right away. If I gave myself too many days of "getting back into routine", I might not ever get out of my sweatpants. My heart found a little courage somewhere, and I decided to just press play on my life.
I created a short, manageable to-do list (then set aside time to actually do the to-do's).
I've made some small, but needed, decisions to help our family thrive in this new season.
Haircuts, playdates, and date nights have found their way onto our calendar again.
Nicholas and I have gone shopping, seen grandmas, bought stickers just for fun.
Jet lag's grip is loosening. I feel more alive, I feel more like me.
I see bigger, more difficult decisions coming in our near future, and I'm not quite as scared.
Jesus is giving me His grace and strength to show up to my life every day.
I'm praying for the courage to just keep pressing play.
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This post is day 15 of my 31 Days to Normal experiment. Click the circle below to see the rest of the posts in this series!