For most of our marriage, Brian and I have lived away from "home". Five weeks after our wedding, we moved away from Washington, and from our families. We lived in Hawaii for six months then moved to Montana, still missing our families and our life at home. We didn't know how long we'd be in Montana, and we didn't expect to become attached to a place eight hours away from families.
A little over four years later, and Montana is now our home. We had our first child here, we have deep relationships with friends, and the beauty surrounding us is breathtaking. We still miss our families, every day. But this place, one we've really been able to make "home" together, has our hearts now, too. When you move somewhere when you are 21, you kind of grow up there. When you fumble through your newlywed years, make mistakes and learn a lot in ministry, and start a family somewhere, it has a special place in your heart. We now live with our hearts located in two places at once. (I bet many of you know what that's like!)
So in August, we are moving back to our first "home." Alongside of some amazing friends of ours,
Brian and I will be planting a church in Seattle. Typing those words out is so surreal. Wowza.
There are lots more logistical things that go along with that, and I'll share some of those along the way. But for now I'll tell you that we see God already doing SO much in Seattle, and we want to join Him. We want to love the people He's placed there, and use the gifts that He's given us to bless them. We have a home church and friends/family supporting us, and we are humbly (and somewhat terrified-ly) walking towards this crazy dream. I feel so unqualified, but I know that God uses the feeble.
I love Seattle and our family there, and I know God will grow my heart even more.
But I can't believe we are shortly saying goodbye to our Montana home. Not just to the teeny house that we love, but to the cherished, faithful friends we have here. To the season of life here that has been so sweet. And to the ministry we work with that has invested SO. MUCH. into our young lives.
Tears are filling my eyes as I write these words. My heart is definitely in two places right now. But I'm trusting that just as God made Montana "home", He'll make Seattle home for us in a new way.
And excuse me if most of my upcoming Instagrams and Tweets have to do with tearful goodbyes and pictures of packed boxes :) You have been warned.