This way of organizing life works when it comes to things like meal planning or creating a new system for sorting receipts. But it doesn't really work when it comes to things of my heart. (Which is where I try to "list-make" the most.)
When I'm faced with something in my heart that needs to change, the insecurity in me yells, "Quick! Fix it!" I envision the more even-keeled, kinder, more servant-hearted Mackenzie I want to be, and think, "how do I be her?" And then I (often literally) write out a step-by-step plan to change.
Non of these are bad things to do, and all of them are things I've actually tried in order to grow as a person. But scheduling my life better never changes my heart. It's an empty set of rules. It makes me feel better for a little while, but eventually I'm as discouraged and more focused on my self than I was before.
So after all the self-fixing-efforts, I find myself sitting at the feet of Jesus. I face Him with a humiliated heart and begin my list of apologies and reasons I need Him to change me.
And though I expect a hoop-jumping plan similar to my own, He stops me in the middle of my self-deprecating sentence, and says simply, "Just let me love you."
In this place, I find fulfillment. In this place, I'm less worried about who I'm not and I'm more consumed with the amazing person that Jesus is. In this place, I put confidence in God's faithfulness and His ability to make me look more like Him, little by little. I let go of the lists, and I cling onto His love.
Today I'd like to skip the empty organizing, and head straight to the "being loved." It's first thing on my list :)