I recently sat myself down and had a talk...with myself. I looked myself right in the face and had a few things to say:
#1- You spend far too much time comparing yourself to other women.
#2 - You are probably never going to be "famous" or make money on the internet.
Ouch. These admissions sting a little, but they are true. Often times when I read a truly inspiring blog post or see the impact some of these women are making, I ask "what am I doing wrong? Why am I not doing that?" Then I hatch a plan to create a little empire that glorifies me and that will hopefully make lots o' cash. And then I remember that I have no business savvy and that life is about Jesus and not about me.
The truth is, I may never do anything truly great on the internet. I may never make a dime off of my internet endeavors. I may never have a huge blog following or inspire thousands of women in their faith.
But the truth is also that I am short-sighted. And what if, instead of trying to live the plan that God wrote for someone else's life, I live the one He wrote for me?
I want to live that life. I want to stop being insecure about who God didn't make me, and joyfully walk as the woman He did make me. I want to let Him use the strengths He's given me to bring life to those around me. I want to embrace the opportunities that He has given me and run with them. I want to bless the women who inspire me, and follow their example of following God's call on their own lives.
I think, if I say "yes" to the life God has written, He'll do something great with me. It might not be huge, it may not reach thousands. It might not make me any money. But it will be great because He's a much better author than I am.