Friday, January 4, 2013

The One Where I Look Myself Right In The Face

I recently sat myself down and had a talk...with myself. I looked myself right in the face and had a few things to say:

#1-  You spend far too much time comparing yourself to other women.

#2 - You are probably never going to be "famous" or make money on the internet.

Ouch. These admissions sting a little, but they are true. Often times when I read a truly inspiring blog post or see the impact some of these women are making, I ask "what am I doing wrong? Why am I not doing that?" Then I hatch a plan to create a little empire that glorifies me and that will hopefully make lots o' cash. And then I remember that I have no business savvy and that life is about Jesus and not about me.

The truth is, I may never do anything truly great on the internet. I may never make a dime off of my internet endeavors. I may never have a huge blog following or inspire thousands of women in their faith.

But the truth is also that I am short-sighted. And what if, instead of trying to live the plan that God wrote for someone else's life, I live the one He wrote for me?
What if the story God writes for my life lets me do something truly great in the life of my children? What if I get to impact you, the person reading my blog? What if my showing up in the lives of my friends helps them to see the face of Jesus? What if God uses my passions, my little amount of resources, and my life to make much of Him?

I want to live that life. I want to stop being insecure about who God didn't make me, and joyfully walk as the woman He did make me. I want to let Him use the strengths He's given me to bring life to those around me. I want to embrace the opportunities that He has given me and run with them. I want to bless the women who inspire me, and follow their example of following God's call on their own lives.

I think, if I say "yes" to the life God has written, He'll do something great with me. It might not be huge, it may not reach thousands. It might not make me any money. But it will be great because He's a much better author than I am.
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  1. I'm not big on commenting... but wanted to let you know that you inspire me in Mommyhood =)

  2. Yes, yes yes! To all of this. So beautifully said, Mackenzie! Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. You ARE inspiring women all over. Because of Him in you.

  3. Love this sweet girl! And that #1 I am terrible about.

    Thank you for being so honest & real!

  4. You inspire me and I read almost every post you write:)...i struggle with some of the things you mentioned. I struggle with the desire to be known and desired by readers everywhere, but not if that costs me Gods plan.

  5. This is such a great post. I am new to your blog but found you thru Influence Network. I struggle with the same stuff all the time. I have really been battling depression in feeling that I am a horrible mother. I know God does not feel this way about me, and I know He feels that you are SO wonderful and the He is going to use your voice to bless others and lead others to Him. Thanks for sharing!

  6. Loved this, Mackenzie. Have you heard of the song "Broken Bread" by Rend Collective Experiment? One of my favourite lines from this song is: "Spend my life Jesus, any way You please, whether on great things, or what seems small. Your will done Your way." Thank you for your beautifully-written honesty!

  7. Thank you for posting this Mackenzie! As a new blogger I often question whether or not I will ever have an impact on anyone either. But I'm finding hope in the fact that Jesus will use me however He pleases! I always turn to this verse: "But in a great house there are not only vessels of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay, some for honor and some for dishonor. 21 Therefore if anyone cleanses himself from the latter, he will be a vessel for honor, sanctified and useful for the Master, prepared for every good work." 2 Timothy 2:20-21

  8. Can I just say that I think God is already doing something big with you? Truly. You're living for Him, honoring Him, pointing others TO HIM!

    That's big.

  9. don't under estimate yourself :) you can see god's love through your post and making a difference in just one persons life, is a big deal :)

    nice to "meet" you! // christina

  10. when i first started reading this post i felt like i was reading something i wrote. I love your posts...never stop writing.

  11. Beautifually written Mackenzie, you have reminded me of truths that i love.


  12. New Follower!! Found you through Caseys linkup! Love your blog.. and when you have time hop over to my blog and if you like what you see.. follow back! Happy New Year!!

  13. Oh my gosh i love this! God has such an incredible plan for YOU! I need to remind myself of that sometimes! Found you via Casey wiegand!


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