In the last few years, I've watched some close friends go through some pretty painful things. And though God has shown His goodness and faithfulness in all of it, I've struggled with fear. These things caused me to ask, how could something so hard happen to someone who loves God? That could happen to me, and my family!" In my grieving and pain, there were times when I felt alone. I couldn't feel God. It was a really difficult time in my life.
This week I had significant conversations with two girlfriends. One suddenly lost a family member several years ago. The other had a recent health scare, which turned out to be benign (thank goodness.) Both of those scenarios terrify me. And separate of each other, both talked about these circumstances in a way that startled me.
They both said - you don't know how much time you have on this earth, or how much time your loved ones have. We should be grateful for every minute God gives us, and not expect tomorrow.
God, could I trust you with something terrible like that? Will you be enough in those moments? What if I'm tempted to walk away from you? What if I feel alone, like I did last time something hard hit? What if you're not enough?
And at 4am, as I laid awake and worried, the Lord popped this scripture into my mind:
In that 4am moment, this verse became peace and life to my soul. And even today, I can't stop thinking about it.
Jesus doesn't shy away from the fact that there WILL be hardship in this life. That actually gives me comfort. He is all-knowing and doesn't try and sugar coat things. But fully knowing that hardship will come - He assures us that He has overcome the world. And His overcoming will be enough, in those moments.
I felt Him saying to me, That hardship? I have overcome that. Your deepest fear, your broken heart? I am enough for that. I have taken away the sin of the world and have given mankind the greatest hope you could ever have. Trials will come; but don't let your heart be troubled. I am enough, because I have overcome this world. If you are tempted to walk away from me? I love you more than that. If you can't feel my presence? I am so much more faithful than your feelings.
All death, pain, worry, fear - I have OVERCOME that. I am enough.
This isn't the end of my journey; but this piece of God's Word has given me so much hope. I can't wait to see where else He takes me.
Will you take some time to meditate on this Scripture with me this week? I know I will continue to let this verse ruminate in my heart. And if the Lord speaks something to you, I would LOVE to hear it.